Her Name is Lidia Maisarah

The photo shows a picture of a female baby, and her name is Lidia Maisarah. I've taken some pictures of her during my family trip to a beach in Kuala Terengganu named 'Pantai Batu Burok'. The reason of my family went to the beach is to have a picnic on the beach to release our stress and also to let the baby, and my other nieces and nephews to play at the beach. It is because my father have promised to them he will take them to beach if they behave well and obedient to their parents. The family members who joining the picnis were my parents, my sister, my brother, and their sons and daughters, and myself. The action taken place during my mid semester holidays.

The reason of I'm taking this photo because I was attracted by this little cute girl attitude and actions during the picnic.
She has made some funny and cute actions such as eating the plate, sucking and biting a straw and etcetera. Furthermore, I rarely spend my time with my family as I am studying at Shah Alam and some of them are living outside of Terengganu. So I used the opportunity to the maximum. I took some pictures of my family members, especially Lidia. I love her. She is my favourite niece, as she is cute and always make funny actions which always make me laughing. Using my Motorola RIZR V8, I take her and my other family members pictures to the heart content. Besides that, I also take some of videos of her during the picnic. They are quite wonderful, I love to watch the pictures and videos when I feel lonely and depress. My family members are the sources of my strength. By looking at their picture, it makes me smile again.

Island

Do you still remember baby,
how beautiful was this beach?
How blue was the ocean?
How the fishes and other aquatic livings swimming?
Hope you still remember baby,
as the place is no longer like it used to be.

The beach used to be a happening place,
with all of people,
many aquatic leavings,
and lots of activity.
But now, the place is empty, dear, empty.

It is just like us baby.
We used to be a happy couple.
We used to live together.
Just like the sand and the ocean,
each perfecting each other.
But now they are separated.
How can a place called a beach,
if there is no ocean no sand.
And how can I live,
without you within me baby.

I am wishing for your return baby,
to revive the beach,
cleaning the ocean and purify it,
make the beach happening again,
just like it used to be.

Your love, your husband.

18/09/2008

On last Thursday, 18th August 2008, I have learnt to pen a poem in TSL 620 class, and we were required to write some poems in the class and then publish it on the internet. Here are the activities:

Warm Up Activity (10mins)

Think of any place that is personally exclusive for you. Write a poem describing how special the place is to you and how it has influenced you. Give the poem a title.

My Gaming Room

The room seems noisy;
the thunders are roaring
the clouds are crying.
Expressing both feeling
of my anger and fear.

Here, I'm invincible,
nothing can touch me,
nor can they disturb me.
It is a world,
that is ruled by me.

Shooting is expected,
killing is necessary.
The weak will be killed,
and there is no whiny
Welcome to my world,
the place for gaming.

Activity 1 (20mins)

Imagine that the picture in the text (a picture of a man dancing alone, all by himself) is a picture on a postcard.

1) Imagine sending it to someone - what kind of poem would you write on the back? How would it sound like?

Missing Partner

I missed the days,
when you were still here.
Everything seems to be alright dear,
As long you are here.

When you were here,
everyone will be jeering for you.
The floors are all yours,
nothing can replace you dear.

I love the way you dance,
the way you stomp your feet,
the way you move your waist,
the way you hold me,
and the way you look at me.

The floor seems to be merrier,
with you around dear.
But now it is empty,
just like my empty heart.
Just like a song without melody,
a knight without armor,
and like me without you baby.

Now, I am here,
waiting for you dear.
I hunger for the sounds of the music,
the sound made by your feet.

2) Imagine receiving this card from someone - what kind of poem would they write on the back?

I Need You

I'm here alone in the ballroom,
dressing beautifully,
sitting on the chair,
while everyone is dancing.

It is weird you know,
I dress beautifully,
I practiced dancing,
but I never dance in ballroom anymore,
not without you honey.

My moves are shapeless,
my twists are rhymeless,
my rhymes are emotionless,
all seems to be not perfect,
when you are not with me.

I need you honey,
you are my soul,
you are my inspiration,
you are my everything,
as you are part of me.

The Five Items

These are five items chosen by me to relate it to the character I invented:
Leather jacket, silver locket with inscription, fortune-telling cards, business card and rugby ball

I was on my way to park, I was about to meet my old friend, Ricky whom I have never met for many years. I have never heard of any news about him and the last one was when I heard he was moving somewhere 20 years ago. 20 years, it has been a long time for me. I really missed that time, we were close friends, we were like brothers. But after he moved, we no longer kept in contact with each other, but I heard that he was doing well in his business.

'Hey', someone greeted me. I was shocked. A tall and handsome man was standing beside me. Even though I never saw him after 20 years, I knew it was him, I recognized his face well. "Ricky?''. "Yes" he replied. Then we shared our stories, what had happened after we lost contact. Then I realized he was carrying a rugby ball with him. I was shocked. I knew that rugby ball very well. It was given by me. It meant a lot for us. The ball was the one that we used to play together and we won many matches. The ball really meant a lot to us. The ball shared our story, our likeness.

"oh I forgot. Here is my business card.'' says Ricky. I looked at the card closely. I was shocked. It stated the business company that I knew very well. Not only me, I was sure everyone in the world knew about the company. It was a well-established business company. Stated on the card, "Ricky Benonza, Executive Officer of.....''

Then I asked him why he moved 20 years ago. He kept on silent for a few minutes before he nodded his head and showed me a silver locket with inscription. It was stated 'Jenny, forever yours'. I knew the locket well, it was Jenny's; his girlfriend. Jenny always wore that locket. It was given by him on their anniversary and she loved to wear it and she would until she died. I still remembered that moment. When she was dying, she asked Ricky to keep the locket for her, as a symbol of their love. I knew it was a tough day for him. I was not shocked he still kept it, I knew he loved her so much, and the locket was their symbol of love, and kept him thinking of Jenny. Then he told me the reason why he moved 20 years ago. It was because he was so sad and he wanted to feel the new experience and tried to forget Jenny. But he couldn't. Jenny was his strength.

Then I asked him whether we could meet again. "Wait" he replied. He took out a deck of fortune-telling cards and then shuffled it and arranged it in six rows. After that, he picked one of them and said, "Okay. How about next week?''. I was shocked, he never changed at all. I knew what he was doing. He was checking for the right time to meet with the cards, he has never changed, not at all. I still remembered that he used to do that before our rugby tournament. Surprisingly, we won many games. Thanks to our wizard, Ricky.

It was already 10p.m. "Sorry Eric, I have to go now, I have some work to do. Next time eh buddy'' he said. I just nodded my head and replied, "Next time. Can't wait to share more stories with you. I have a lot to tell you''. "Oh. Before I go, please take it. It is not much, just a simple present from a old friend to his good buddy.'' he said. I opened the wrapper and was shocked. It was a leather jacket that I used to dream of having when I was still young. He still remembered it. Then I realized that I was crying; touched by the friendship that had never faded away.

Ramadhan

It's coming. Ramadhan Al-Mubarak is coming. This is the month that all Muslims have been waiting for so long. It is a blissful month. It is a month full of challenges where all Muslims are required to fast, and Muslims are required to follow certain special rules during Ramadhan, especially they have to control their eagerness to eat or preventing themselves from something that will break their fasts. It is a tough and hard day. But it is a rewarding month as the rewards of virtue for good actions will be doubled. So actually it is the month that shouldn't be wasted by any Muslims.

As for myself, Ramadhan is the month where I can train myself to control my lust. I have to control myself; not to talk badly to other people, no eating, no sleeping for hours long, need to control my attitude and etc. In the month of Ramadhan, if Muslims do not behave themselves, the rewards of their virtue will be deducted.

The interesting information about the Ramadhan is, it helps to develop humanity, sensitivity of others' problems, developing human health and also save our money. During Ramadhan, Muslims are required to fast. During the period of fasting, they will be able to feel the struggles of the unfortunate which is to eat even once a day. Ramadhan also teaches us about saving our money. During Ramadhan, there are many sales, so usually many people will overspend their money. But actually they can avoid it if they really control their lusts. During Ramadhan, we are required to control our lusts. Loosing the control will cause us bad results.

Fasting is not a new thing for me, I have experienced it since I was 5 years old. I still remember, back then my mother wont allow me to eat with my other family's members during break fast. It sounds cruel for a child, but for me, it is the best way to teach any child to fast. If not, they wont start fasting from early childhood.

Recently, I be able to save some money as I spend less on my food's expenses. I cook at my house and rarely eat outside unless it is Thursay, well that day I will have class with Mr. Jeffri. But it doesn't make me sad at all as I cant break fast with my friend. If not because of the class, I'm sure I wont be able to eat at the same table with my friends. Believe me or not, Ramadhan is the first time I've been eating with my friends. Who says Ramadhan is torturing? It is rewarding yourself.

The Fictional Character That I Like

A fictional character is the character that does not exist in real life but is created for certain purposes which play certain roles. Usually, fictional character is very different compared to non-fictional character as their attitudes, characteristics, their actions and etc sometimes are beyond what we imagine and mostly it will not happen in the real world. Fictional character also is a very interesting character, usually the author or director will put some special attitudes towards the fictional character which makes them much more interesting. As an example; the character might look stupid in front of many people, but he is a hidden genius.



I have a fictional character that I like, he is from an investigational comic that I always read. His name is Hajime Kindaichi from Kindaichi Shounen no Jikenbo. He is gifted with 180 IQ, but not many do realize it. What I like about this character is his attitude. In the story, he is pictured as a very stupid high school student which always fails in the school's examination, and shockingly, the school that he is studying in is one of the best schools in Japan. Furthermore, he enters the school with the highest score for the test that any students are required to sit and pass with certain mark in order to enter the school. He seems to be enjoying sleeping in his class rather than learning, it is quite mysterious how he manage to have the highest score for the school's entrance test. He also befriended some friends even though he likes to annoy other people and is very lazy. Usually people do not like to befriend with people who acts like him, it is the reality, but in the story it is different. Maybe he has his own charm. Besides that, he befriends a girl who he has known since a child and the girl is the cleverest student in the school. The girl is very beautiful, intelligent and well known in the school. She is liked by everyone and is the president of students' society for the school, but yet she likes him so much. Which it rarely happen in real life situation.

The positive attitude that the character has despite of the negative that is shown by the author are many. One of them is he will never give up when he is trying to solve any criminal cases even though it is hard and unsettled by the police department, he is dedicated detective. Besides that, the author also shows his humanity and kindness. In most cases, he is not only revealing the truth, but he is also trying to make the criminals realize of their mistakes and make them regret of their wrongdoing.

Last but not least, he has an IQ of 180. Yet he never shows off and he will use his ability in the right place. Mostly, some people intend to use their gifts to do something bad; something wrong. That's why I like him, i respected him. He shows that we can choose to be whoever we are, as we are what we are.

My Early Reading History

I still remember, since my early age - my childhood, I was not interested to read any kinds of books or novels, except for comics. I was exposed to reading and writing, but I was not exposed to reading for pleasure, but more to learn how to read and write. Back then, I never expected that reading can be an interesting activity, reading seems to be something that is boring unless if it is comic.

However, when I was in primary school (if I am not mistaken, I was in 2nd Year), I have read an novel, Moby Dick, it was the first novel that I read, and surprisingly, I fell in love with it. After reading the novel, it gave me such an excitement that I could not describe with words. I learnt some new things from the novel, I never thought that people do eat whales before, but now I did realize that. I also learned that humans sometimes are greedy, they will do anything to obtain what they want, and humans too, sometimes never learn from their mistakes. That are some of the moral values that I have learnt through the novel. The novel was just a starter to develop my passion for reading. The next novel really made me fall deeply in love with reading.

The novel that has caught my attention was "Sherlock Holmes" series by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle. This is the novel that leaves a big impact in me and makes me love to read. The novel has really changed my attitude towards reading. The part that I like the most from this novel is; it makes me think. Everytime I read the novel, somehow it makes me feel like I am the main character - Sherlock Holmes, trying to solve any mystery and puzzle in the novel, and that makes the novel seems to be alive. The excitement that I get from the novel is unimaginable. The novel series contain a lot of emotions, not only mystery but also love, friendship, and humanity. I've learnt a lot from the novel, and the novel is the reason why until now I love investigation and mystery movies. Until now, I still love the novel. How I wish I can be like Sherlock Holmes.

High Fidelity

Last 17th July, I watched a movie entitled "High Fidelity''. I'm sure many of you have watched this movie. This movie was directed by Stephen Frears and was out in the year 2000. The movie is actually based on a novel by Nick Hornby in 1995. The main idea of this movie is generally about love and how it reflects and affects the main character's life - Rob Gordon starred by John Cusack. The movie solely reflects on the main character, Rob Gordon, which is a man in the age of 30, who is having some difficulties in his life: he still does not achieve any of his dreams except having his own music record shop (which is not in the list before hand), and always having a bad relationship with women, especially in love. In the movie also, the director shows us that even though Rob Gordon has been in many intimate relationships, he still does not understand and recognize women's feelings. Worse still, he never realizes why many of his relationships end up badly. Also, in the movie, it shows how love changes Rob, who is not a gentleman, dedicated only to his music, only expects to have sex in any relationship and worse still, is not alert of others' feelings to a man that is craving for a loyal and eternity love. In the movie, the viewers are also exposed to the history of Rob Gordon's love relationship - the story of his ex-girlfriends.

What makes this movie interesting is, it is different compared to a normal love fictional story. In a normal love fictional story, the ending or the plot of the story usually can be expected easily, whether it started with a happy or sad beginning, in the end, the main characters surely will live happily ever after. However, this is quite different with this movie. The plot is quite different, there is no romantic scene in the movie. Furthermore, the main male character - Rob, has been pictured as a bad person, which the characteristic of him does not suit for a protagonist character. In the movie, we can see that Rob is not a gentleman, and is not very alert of others' feelings. It contrasts the normal love fictional stories where all the male main characters are usually pictured as gentle, kind, strong and handsome, so on and so forth.

The main character, Rob Gordon, is a very fascinating subject. What I'm trying to say is, he changes your perception and plays with your emotions while watching the movie. As for me, when i was watching the movie, i was very angry with him. He is a man, and so do I. But during the period of time (watching the movie), i feel that I'm ashamed to acknowledge there is a kind of man like him in this world. He is not alert of other people's feelings, especially girls' and he does not look for love, but more to having intimate physical relationship, or in a simpler word, sex. When I was watching the movie, Rob Gordon's characteristic has made me think about some issues. He's torturing my heart every time i watch his reaction towards other people, and the way he handles his problems, and in everything he does, and that's why I like Rob Gordon. Even though he was rude and not very gentle, but he is my favorite character in the story as he plays the big role that makes the movie alive.

In my own opinion, the ending of the story is quite okay. But, I do think that maybe we can have some extra scenes. In my own opinion, if i were the director, I will not reunite Laura and Rob after the death of her father, but in a time when Rob is completely change himself to a successful man. I will make Rob creating an album that is specially made for Laura, and he, himself contribute the lyrics and also sing the song. After a period of time, i will make him succeed as a businessman, an artist and also as a gentleman. Then i will reunite Laura and Rob together again, and this time they are completely devoted their lives for each other. I think it is better than having them together but Rob is still have some of his old attitude, which is flirting. It shows that he is not really devoted his love for Laura.

New Semester

Here comes the new semester again and as usual, there will be new faces, and not forgotten, the senior students with their new hopes and plans, and even some of them are discussing the latest hot topics – what else, Malaysia’s politic. I can’t say much about politic, what I can say is, I just want the government to take care of Malaysians, and by all means, I just want a true, dedicated and credible Malay to lead the country as the Prime Minister, that’s all. As for myself, I need to improve my CGPA, thinking of my future that lies ahead. I can’t predict what my future will be, so from now on, I need to get ready and be prepared to face the future, which I’m sure is much tougher than it is now. As for now, I'm dissatisfied with my last semester’s result, so I think it is a must for me to increase my CGPA for this semester, and this requires the need of staying focused. So I have decided to sell my desktop computer to avoid being addicted to gaming, well, it’s unfortunately my favorite pastime. I've spent a lot of times gaming for the past years, so I think it is better for me to get rid of it now, or else, I won't get what I want this semester. So I've bought a new laptop to replace my desktop, maybe it is not as good as my previous computer, but I still can use it for academic purposes. It just has a minor disability in graphic performance, which i think is not that important to me, for now.

PTPN...... this should be a happy news for us, students, but it seems it is not. We have been waiting for so long, and the semester has already started for a week now and still have been hearing nothing about it. Where is the PTPTN missing? Do they know that students really need money to buy their textbooks, stationery, and to be spent on other expenses? We need it so much. On the 13th of July, I received the latest newsflash from my friend. PTPTN has already been banked in into our account. YES, it should be a great news, but some of us, students, are increasingly disappointed because we realize that some of our money (about RM200) is missing. Where is the money?? I've heard some rumors about the missing money, but i can just remain silent. I'm just a student. However, it is significantly essential to note that students do have power. In Indonesia, the students play their rules to change their government, they play the big roles in going for or against the government. But hopefully Malaysia won't be like them. I don't want to have the power to control my country if it means that the foreign power will have the chance to invade us like Indonesia. But still, students do have the power. It is just about the right time for them to use it. Besides that, I don't think students should emphasize politic more than their studies, if they fail in their studies, do you think that they are qualified to rule the country? The same goes to me, I need to focus on my study more than anything else.

It should be enough of politics. Back to the main point, my new semester. This new semester has given me some shocking news. Hey, it's just a week, there are still plenty of weeks that lie ahead of us. So who knows what will happen after this. But I'm praying hard that anything that's about to happen in the future will bring good news to everyone. Amin.